Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Deleted Scene from Torn Away

This is a scene from Torn Away, available now, that was deleted. I always loved this scene, and so did the editor. However, she pointed out it wasn't needed and the novel would be tighter without it.

My original plan was to include it in book 2, however there just wasn't a place or space for it. Too much else going on. So I decided to share it with everyone on here. I hope everyone enjoys it!


Less than two minutes later, the phone rang, dashing Ashley’s hopes of putting her feet up and watching the game. Ashley walked into the kitchen and grabbed the portable phone off the cradle on the counter near the toaster and can opener. Hitting the button to answer the call, she snarled into the receiver. “Yes?”

There was a breath on the other side. “Um…”

Ashley rolled her eyes. “Yeah? Say something or I’m hanging up.”

She winced as there was another breath on the other side of the line. In her mind, she started to count, thinking if she reached ten she’d hand up, knowing all along she would really only give it to five.

At three, a small mousy voice finally spoke.

“Is Drew Duncan there?”

Ashley closed her eyes and sighed. Great, some idiot bimbo Drew’s probably been banging got the home number.

“He’s not here,” Ashley said. She heard the impatience in her voice, but didn’t care. She wasn’t in high school anymore and she wasn’t about entertain some dimwitted girl on the line just because she’d gone and fallen in love with her idiot brother.

“Um…” the young voice said again. Ashley physically winced. She sounded like she had the emotional maturity of a thimble.

“You want to leave a message?” Ashley said.

There was a hesitation and Ashley seriously thought about hanging up.

Finally, the girl spoke.

“I’m sorry,” she said. Her voice was shaky, nervous. “I know this must be a hard time. I just wanted to tell Drew… Well, I just felt I should thank him…”

Ashley pushed her hair back and sat down at the kitchen table. God, if this chick wanted her to thank Drew for banging her brains out, she was going to be sick.

“Uh huh,” Ashley said.

“I uh… I just meant,” the girl stammered. “He saved my life and I never got the chance to say thank you.”

“Yeah… wait, what?” Ashley said. “He did what?”

Ashley could hear the girl swallow at the other end of the line. “He got me away from those men. Got me back home. I tried to find him the next day, but they said he had to leave. A family emergency.”

Understanding finally dawned on Ashley. This was the girl the General told her about. The one who had been kidnapped.

With a much gentler voice, Ashley started to talk. “What’s your name, sweetheart?”

“Jen,” she said.

“My name’s Ashley. How are you doing?”

There was a hesitation on the other end of the line and Ashley imagined the girl was probably wondering if she was still talking to the same person.

“I’m alright,” she said. “It’s hard to sleep. I’m still worried they’ll come back, even though I know they won’t.”

Ashley nodded. “That’s right. You’re safe now. I know that can be a hard thing to adjust to. Just give it time.”

Jen sniffled. “I know. I’m trying.”

“Are you sleeping okay?” Ashley said. When Jen didn’t answer, she guessed the answer. 

“Nightmares?”

“Not really,” Jen said.

“There’s nothing to be ashamed of,” Ashley said.

“I know,” Jen said. “I’m not really having nightmares. Just problems falling asleep. I think I hear them coming for me. Every time I close my eyes, I’m scared they’re gonna grab me. Last night…”

Ashley heard a muffled sob from the other end.

“What happened last night, sweetie.”

“My brother,” Jen said. “His name is Jake. He came into my room and crawled into bed with me and told me he’d stay awake all night so I could sleep. And he did.”

Ashley smiled. “That’s sweet. He’s your brother and he loves you. He wants to protect you.”

Jen let out a sound that was half sob, half snort. “He’s only eight, but he’s taking care of me.”

“He’s your brother,” Ashley repeated. “That’s what they’re there for.”

Jen laughed. “Do you have a brother?”

Ashley cringed, less at the painful memory of Drew letting her crawl into his bed when she was afraid to sleep, and more at the fact she’d refused to think of that memory for so long. Nothing could seem to stop the images of Drew holding her when she was scared flooding her mind.

“Yeah. I’m Drew’s sister.”

“Oh,” Jen said. Her voice got quiet again. “Someone told me he had a death in the family.”

Nodding, even though she knew Jen couldn’t see her on the other end of the phone, Ashley took a moment to wipe away a tear. “Yes. Our sister died. He found out just a little while after he helped you ran back home. I’m sure he would have checked on you if he hadn’t.”

“He called,” Jen said. “I wasn’t here, but he spoke to my mom. I just wanted to thank him and say that I was sorry. I should tell you too. I’m sorry.”

“Thank you,” Ashley said. “Tell me about your family.”

Ashley pictured a young teen girl, twirling her hair nervously as she spoke. She could see the scene of her curled in bed with her little brother, but as she did, the faces changed to hers and Drew’s.

As Jen continued to talk, memories flooded back. Fleeting images of Drew coming into her room. The room that always had a light on. Drew would often act like it was a hardship to be there with her and Kelli.

Jen continued to describe how life was different now that she had been rescued. It wasn’t just that she was scared all the time or worried she’d go to sleep at night and wake up to realize the rescue was a dream and she was still being held captive.

“I feel different,” Jen said. “I think about everything I used to think was important, music, celebrities, and I think most of it is just silly now. I’ve talked to my friends since I’ve been back. Seen a few. And they’ve been nice, but they just don’t… I don’t know…”

“They don’t get it,” Ashley said. “You were sheltered before. Now you’ve seen a very ugly part of life and you know it’s there. You lost something, and you have to accept there’s probably no way to get it back. You can still enjoy movies and music, but you know what’s out there. What you need to understand is, even though there’s a lot of ugliness out there, there are still a lot of wonderful things. And some silly things. And it’s okay to be silly. It’s fine to enjoy being with your friends and watching a movie, but you know the ugliness you saw is out there. You lost your innocence in a way, but in the end, you’re stronger for it.”

There was silence on the end of the line. Ashley could imagine Jen thinking about what she’d said. Maybe even wiping away a tear.

“I don’t feel stronger,” Jen finally said.

“I know,” Ashley said. “But you are. You just have to believe that.”


Sunday, October 29, 2017

Shrimp Far Diavolo!

In my book Torn Away, there's a scene where Sam makes dinner for Drew. I wanted to have a dish that wasn't hard to make, yet was really good and spoke to their relationship a little. Somehow, I got it in my head to use Shrimp Fra Diavolo. Only problem was, I'd never made it. So I looked up a few recipes and decided I'd have to try it. Of course, I don't follow anyone else's recipe to a T, but rather add my own flair.

My first attempt, my wife wasn't to keen on trying it so she had me make her shrimp cocktail style, but she tried mine and loved it. Since then, she's decided it's one of her favorite dishes that I make.

Below is the recipe as I make it.

 Shrimp Fra Diavolo
2 bags raw shrimp
4 cloves garlic
4-5 tbs extra virgin olive oil
Sprinkling sea salt
1 bottle white cooking wine
2 lg cans Hunts diced tomatoes
1 tbs parsley
1 tbs oregano
½ - 1 tbs cayenne pepper (to taste)
1 box angel hair pasta

1) Peel shrimp (2 bags)
2) Dice 4 cloves of garlic
3) In Dutch oven, cover bottom with extra virgin olive oil and sea salt
4) Add shrimp and use wooden spoon to turn cool shrimp until it starts to turn pink, remove and put in bowl. Put bowl in fridge. (Shrimp should be undercooked
5) Lower heat quickly and add garlic, use wooden spoon to mix with juices and add sea salt to taste
6) Dump in 2 large cans of diced tomatoes
7) Add 1 bottle of cooking white wine, or two small bottles from liquor store
8) Add a tablespoon of parsley, a table spoon of oregano, and either red pepper flakes or cayenne pepper (To taste, usually a little less for the cayenne, probably ½ a tablespoon for this amount)
9) Let sauce cook for 20 minutes or more
10) Make angel hair pasta
11) When ready to eat, put heat up, add shrimp for 2 minutes, and then add pasta, mixing well.
12) Serve with plenty of water. No, more water than that.

Dedication in Torn Away

I wanted to share the dedication that's in Torn Away, coming 11-01-17

Dedication

     Writing this book made me think about how important being connected to family can be, and in the early stages, I had the chance to reconnect with several members of my own.
      Many years ago, when becoming an author was nothing more than a dream, there was an argument within my family. While I was only a witness to the dispute as I was a kid, the actions of the adults in my life affected me greatly. I lost all contact with my aunts, uncles, and all of my cousins from one side of the family. This was before the age of the internet when contact could have easily been maintained on social media sites.
     Decades later, my cousin Marcus found me through one of these social media sites. It was amazing talking to everyone, even if I felt a little like a kid who had just found out his face had been on the side of a milk carton for years. Since then, I’ve had several wonderful conversations with many relatives that were torn away from me at an early age.
     First off, thank you to Marcus for finding me! And a special shout out to Gina for those great phone calls.
   
I want to dedicate Torn Away to those family members, in particular to my three aunts that I’ve been able to reconnect with. I can’t tell you how much it means to have you back in my life. Maria, Anna, and Che Che!!! I love you all so much!

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Welcome to my Mind

Here, I hope to share with you all the news about my adventures as an author. I'll post about everything. My books as they're being written, released and promoted. Personal stuff. (But not too personal.) Thoughts on writing, the emotional journey's I'm going through, the learning process about the craft of writing, and anything else blog worthy.

Let me start by telling you about who I am. I'm a married father of twin girls, both currently in their 2nd year of college. I also have 3 terrific foster kids here, 1 of who is also in college.

I started writing young adult fiction. My debut novel was Vision of Shadows, about a 17 year old girl who was a psychic. She's  about to literally meet the boy of her dreams, and he'll either be the love of her life, or the end of it.

Soon I'd write a book called Just Breathe, which dealt with a girl named Cassie who is sexually assaulted, but saved by a young man named Noah. As the pair grow closer, she starts to realize that his past is darker than anything she could have imagined.

Now, I'm hard at work on my Torn Series. Book 1, Torn Away, won 1st place in the Saratoga RWA Great Beginnings Contest and will be published by The Wild Rose Press on 11-01-17. I just signed with TWRP for book 2, Torn in Two and I'm working on the finale, Torn to Pieces.

Here's the blurb for book 1 Torn Away:


Drew Duncan swore he’d never go back to Ember Falls again. After he was wrongfully charged with his high school girlfriend’s murder, he waited for a trial that never came. When he was released from jail a year later, he left everything behind. But when his sister is murdered, Drew is forced to return to the hometown where he and his sisters were brutalized by their alcoholic father.


Once back, not even his training as a Marine and point man for McAlister Security prepares Drew for what he must face--a surviving sister who refuses to forgive him for abandoning her, a nephew who trembles when he enters the room, and an entire town that thinks he got away with murder. To protect his nephew, Drew will face his most terrifying fear. Going home.



This is easily the best thing I've ever written and I'm so proud to share it with the world.

I've gotten into writing a lot of more emotional stuff, dealing with abuse, sexual assault, self loathing, domestic abuse and many other issues. I hope to handle them with the sensitivity that they deserve.

As I continue to write, I'll come on here, share news, my thoughts, and little extra's like a cut scene or little teaser.

But for right now, I just wanted to say hi and Welcome to my mind!!!

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